The One With The Need for a Marker

Our beautiful neighbor passed away shortly after the new year. There wasn’t a funeral. There wasn’t a memorial. …another tragedy in the heartbeat that is generational poverty. Everyday I walk outside and I pause and look at the porch hoping maybe I got it wrong somehow. Maybe she’d be there calling me honey and asking…

The One With My #OneWord365

I’ve been thinking about it for two weeks. What one word would lead me into 2017? What one word can I carry through the completely unknown & familiar of my life? Part of moving forward for me has always meant looking back in a sense. Moving into 2016 my one word was LEAN. I leaned…

The One with a letter to Maeve

A few days ago you were getting your haircut…your first “bangs.” You hopped onto the  chair and you said to our hair stylist, “So what are you doing over Christmas?” Like an actual human. A mini-person. Next year you enter Kindergarten. You are so ready and daddy and I are actually pretty excited too. A lot…

The One With the Shadows

The thing about light is that there is also dark. And there has been so much darkness this year. So much pain and heartache internally, locally, globally…and I feel it. But how to you become aware of it, feel it, and not let it overtake you? To be honest, I don’t know today. I really…

The One Where The Wine Is On the Porch

A dear friend of mine asked me a few weeks ago if we’re capable of having a “boring life.” You see everyone I am closely connected with are all doing really hard things…on purpose… and we’re all exhausted. We’re being brave through life changes, we’re kicked down and we get back up, we start new things,…

The One With The Coffee Bean

Green coffee beans were our oldest daughter’s first toy. She used to scoop them up and pour them into different containers as she explored volume in the mind of a toddler. We used to put her on top of our coffee burlap sacks for fun and drag her to every coffee shop in a 5…

The One When It’s Been 2 Months of Being a Family of 5

On a rainy Thursday afternoon our littles were napping and we had just finished up a home visit. My phone rings. “We have a 1 year old girl needing to be placed. Do you want her?” That’s about it. The biggest question I get asked is “How long will you have her?” I admit, it’s…

The One When We Thought it Was Goodbye But It Was Really Hello

I packed her bag. She came with just a blanket but over 3 weeks she’s accumulated a lot. I stuck a Jesus Storybook Bible with an inscription inside…”You are loved sweet girl. we are thankful you were with us. You are beautifully made” I told our girls to say goodbye and hugged and kissed her….

The One With A Dead Mouse

I wrote that text to my husband early last week:                       Then a few days later I wrote this: Then three days after that I wrote this:    And that my friends, is REAL LIFE WITH KIDS. We can all post pictures of perfectly smiled kids…

The One with the Story To Tell

  I once heard that the things that really break your heart are the things you are meant to lean into and the things that you keep at a distance out of fear is what you are really meant to create, explore, and do. I think if we are really honest with ourselves we all have…